I have had this blog for over a year plus now and I have talked about a whole bunch of things. I have talked about mental health. I have talked about high school and how it was hell. I talked about my writing career and how chasing my dreams is exhausting and how my brain hates me and how depression sucks. Yes, I already brought up mental health but just thought I should put out how much I hate depression. 

Anyways… 

I have talked about a lot of stuff but the one thing that I haven’t talked about is periods. Not this period . . The period that makes you bleed every month. That period. I don’t know why the universe or god said hey it’s too much work to just tell them no period why don’t we make them bleed every month for god knows many days and then they will know they are not with child. YAYA I say while dying on the inside. 

I remember when my cousins got their period and I just kept thinking man I cant wait to get my period. I can’t wait to bleed out each month with cramps that make me want to cry and die on the inside. No idea what I was thinking. 

Anyways I won’t fully bore you with the whole period story but when I finally got it I had nothing but blood in a sense. No cramps no nausea nothing and I thought man this is easy I am so thankful for a painless period. Then it hit me and I realized and regretted ever wishing for my period. 

Periods come with a lot of things whether that craving, pimples, sore boobs there’s a whole list that people can have and I must admit besides the cramps my period wasn’t that bad. Then I got older and now I’m 19 and there are stages to my damn period. 

The one thing with periods is people like to make jokes and make fun of women and on a good day I relate to them and think their funny but then there’s people who make videos making women or anyone who bleeds monthly look like a crazy person and make fun of our crazy “emotions” and then they say oh your just bleeding. 

This may be TMI but I’m gonna share anyway. 

When I’m on my period I am an asshole when it comes to disagreements or fights I even have to warn my guy friends because I know I will be some angry bitch for no reason. I feel like I haven’t said it enough yet but periods suck. Anyways back to what I was saying.

The saying goes periods are supposed to last about 5 days to a week right doesn’t sound that bad right? Well a week before the actual period starts I go into a depression episode some worse than others it truly depends. I get cramps headaches and pain everywhere and nausea with a sprinkle of everything sounds gross and I become very picky.  Then the period comes and honestly all that is really added is worse cramps and actually bleeding. Then after god knows how long (5-7 days) I am tired depressed and want to eat everything. 

Basically, it’s two weeks of hell which only means I have two good weeks out of the month without feeling like crap. Periods sound so simple but dealing with them is not. You can make fun or joke or laugh about how people who bleed act the way they do each month. We go through so much and hormones go up and down.

I talk about this because some people are grossed out by the whole period thing or they don’t know how many things that go into. Now, this blog is not to teach you how this works and how that works just to give an example. 

Periods and I mean this as nice as possible 

Periods fucking suck. 

To ever say that someone dealing with it is just weak or that it’s not that bad.
Shut up.