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Depression. 

Its only one word 

Yet somehow there are different forms of it. 

However, we talk about only one of the forms of depression today. 

I live in Canada and if you know about Canada and maybe live in Canada you would know that it gets cold. Like it gets really really cold. Your nose is all dry. Your lips are peeling. Your stuffy and it’s a mess. Outside is wet cold and gross and you really don’t want to go out there because why. I rather stay in a nice warm place than freeze my butt off. 

Now places that tend to get colder and the less sunlight and well less going outside are the places where people go into depression. Seasonal depression or the winter blues. I never really noticed it bothered me until covid happened and well I was always home. At school, I was always up and walking around doing stuff it kinda just makes the brain shut up. However, when you are at home your mind is louder and takes more notice that you are indeed depressed. 

It’s weird how it works. I overthink more. I am stressed about things that really do need to be stressed about or that I can not control. My mind is all of a sudden very sensitive to things and even my anger. It’s crazy how mean the mind can get just because of well a season. During these months it’s also harder to get work done and well do the work that will help me get to my dream job.

What makes it frustrating about seasonal depression is when you’re in it you don’t know you’re in it until your deep or sometimes when you’re out of it. My first realization was last year when winter was ending and summer was making its way in and I just felt better. I was myself again and there wasn’t a depression episode every day week. I also noticed I was more inspired to get all my work done and wanted to actually do some writing. I looked back and I realized how much seasonal depression affected me. 

Writing this it’s the end of April and for some reason, it is still freezing cold. Like every day is windy and gross and muddy and I’m pretty sure mother nature is just as confused as her even though she is the one who is supposed to be in control. Anyways besides freezing temps and the hour change I once again have noticed my mental state getting way better and the overthinking depression kinda just leaving. 

Now of course I do still have the boring old depression but I know how to punch that one in the face. Sometimes. honestly, it depends on the day. Sometimes it’s a middle finger type day and works just as well. 

As this blog post comes to an end here are boring meh tips I have learned with seasonal depression. 

Get out of the damn house. Just stand outside and remember there are living breathing sometimes annoying people out there. Go grocery shopping and go see the pets at PetSmart. Go make your mind busy. 

Spoil yourself. Order Starbucks, Eat all the food you love, As cheesy as it sounds it’s not your fault your brain is like this so you might as well try to make yourself feel better. 

Now this last one I have yet to try but buy a SAD LIGHT. Therapists around the world and even people who suffer from the seasonal depression say it’s the best. I am not a science person but from what I heard this light mimics the sunlight and if you turn it on and chill with the light for 30 minutes a day it helps and maybe even removes the Seasonal depression. 

Like I said the mind is a very weird place and although it’s 2022 people still have no ideas how the mind works sometimes. At least you can do is treat yourself and help your mind out a little.