The title says it all…

I talk about a lot of stuff on this blog. Sometimes I have to go back and see what I have already written because I am horrible at remembering and I don’t keep all my blog posts in one place. I’m just a mess and I have accepted it. 

Now I have talked about chasing your dreams and how exhausting is it and I also have talked about hearing the overnight success stories and how it doesn’t happen to a lot of us.

However today I talk about social media and how ANNOYING it is.

Now for some people that don’t have to care about social media and their following because they want to become a doctor or a lawyer and well you don’t really need a social media following/ presents. But for people who want to become social media influencer or blogger or a writer who is trying to self-publish and way many more because there is a huge list. But with all of those you do need to grow your accounts and work hard to make it happen. 

Growing on any type of platform whether that’s Instagram or Tik Tok which are both the most popular at this moment. Both of those take a lot of research, Trial and error and learning from other creators but no matter what it’s hard, tiring and a kick in the ass.

When I realized I wanted to be a writer/ screenwriter and another slash director. It wasn’t until the start of grade 12 maybe even the end. So when I knew that I wanted to do some self-publish projects of my own and if you know anything about self-publishing you have to do everything yourself. You have to market all your stuff on your own and you don’t have someone who knows everything having your back. .

So in the middle of 2020, I made my writing account on both Instagram and Tik Tok. It went ok. Tik Tok was blowing up because everyone relaized it wasn’t that stupid and Instagram loves copying every single platform so they brought in reels. At that time they were both doing well. I was trying to grow my accounts but at the same, it wasn’t bothering me as much. Until about a couple plus months ago..somewhere in 2021. 

On Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays I post just a post of my writing. From Monday to Friday every day I post a reel or two. My posts sometimes do good and sometimes they don’t… My reels well if I posted five videos that week two of them would blow up. Which was great and I just learned more. Tik Tok I posted twice a day every day. They did good then they did bad. 

Then one day Instagram changed its algorithm and so did Tik Tok. Actually, Tik Tok did it many times and when they did I learned about it and I changed my posts up so it would be pushed to be the fyp and reels page. I followed the checklists or the times to post how many seconds the videos should be and what songs are trending. 

With both platforms, I followed everything and everyone’s advice and I worked and I still work my ass off. All the hard work and my work weren’t going anywhere. The videos are barely being pushed and I am doing everything I need to do. All of a sudden it all just seemed hopeless. Because Tik Tok is still changing and keeping up is a pain and my Instagram was the place I was doing good and usually when one went bad the other went good and I had this safe place but all of a sudden I had no safe place and no place to keep my mind in peace. It makes it seems I am talking about mental illness but I promise I am still talking about social media. 

I believe change is amazing when it comes to social media and it makes things so much better but when small creators are doing EVERYTHING those platforms are telling us to do and nothing is getting better then how is change good how is saying we will help small creators grow when they are actually just making it worse. 

It’s exhausting and social media want to help us so badly but yet somehow is making everything SO MUCH WORSE. Small creators work so hard we do everything we follow everything and we learn so much but still nothing. Although it may just be work to some or not important. It’s a huge punch in the face and it wrecks our mental health. It wrecks our motivation and inspiration to grow. We work day and night. Hours on end and still nothing works.

Social media seems easy but when you start to focus on it. It’s just so bad.