The discussion that is often brought up as you get older is kids. The question of do you want kids or when are you having kids and well so on. Now I am only twenty and lucky for me I haven’t been asked that second part of the question but people around my age do talk about that question and I have been asked that question a few times. 

Now when I was younger and into my high school I wanted to be a mom. I wanted to have the cute babies and be a mother. Hell for like a year I was like I want to be a stay at home mom. Like having kids was a thing for my future and for a lot of people my age at the time it was to. It was brought up in group talks and some of my girl friends having “Baby Fever”.. Then Tik Tok happened. 

Now when Tik Tok was first a thing it was people dancing and well having fun on this new platform and then Tik Tok grew each month and everyone and their mom was joining. Literally. There were many sides including Mom side of Tik Tok and well education about pregnancy and birth and all that fun wonderful stuff. . . . . .

Now of course Tik Tok came after high school and my thoughts were already changing about having kids and then Tik Tok happened and well…. Yeah no. 

Now it wasn’t just learning about the human body after having a baby and well the whole baby thing. It was also the fact that toddlers are a pain in the butt and your responsible for them until you die and I cant even take care of myself sometimes. But besides that its more then just responsibly or body changing. Its bring another human into the world. Which sounds like a normal thing that women do all around the world. 

Now this person talked about this on Tik Tok and it was the best way to describe the reason a lot of people don’t want kids like myself. It’s because we know we are bringing another human with emotions into this world. Someone who is going to hate the colour green who is gonna hate peas who is going to hate certain songs. A person who is going to get angry and you are gonna have to teach them to control them and to talk about it. Birthing a child is bringing another you into this world. You know how scary that sounds. Like I annoy myself like if there was another one of me I would want to punch it and now I have to birth one that is half me and half of another person.. That just sounds scary. Like its not a baby its a human and that needs you… 

But the most of all its the world we live in. I don’t mean by how bad humans are. I mean how generally bad the world is. Global warming is happening I mean it snowed in Texas. It never snowed in Texas. Canada is having longer winters and hotter summers and these big corporations aren’t doing a damn thing and the world leaders are stealing land and not giving clean water and I don’t even know if human kind will be alive for the next 200 years. Why would I want to bring another human into this mess. They didn’t ask for this life. 

Again I am only 20 and I still have yet to figure out what part time job I want to apply for and my mindset might be turned around in a few years or ten. Hell twenty years from now I might read this and laugh. All I know is kids are a huge thing and I cant even remind myself to drink water sometimes let alone make sure another person is drinking water.

Fun fact of the day breast milk doesn’t only just come out of the breast it also comes out the armpit. HUH Like why,… 

Also as of finishing this blog Oklahoma has now banned abortions from the start of fertilization….