Growing up is a wonderful thing. Well for the most part. 

At some ages growing up is good because there were things your younger self could not do maybe because you were too young or maybe a tad bit illegal. 

There is an age where growing up sucks because you get older and your bones start to crack when you reach to grab something. 

However, one of the things when it comes to growing up is the people in your life. As you grow you meet people and maybe even let some people go. The second one is pretty hard and can be a pain even years later but that’s growing up and well that’s life as sad as that sounds. 

When you grow you meet people in different times of your life which I kinda already said but in different times of yourself you act differently and you treat people differently and well you probably are not that mature in some ways. 

Now for me in high school, I was not with the best crowd. It wasn’t bad stuff like drugs or alcohol or stuff like that but it was a lot of drama and fights and just very stupid stuff and I acted on it. I can now say as I have gotten out of that group and graduated high school two years ago now that I was a total bitch. I was rude, I said horrible stuff and I truly was not a good person and hell I would not want to be friends with the high school me. I was that bad again just drama and stupid high school stuff. 

After graduating I learned this saying or something in that. It’s people will remember you at a certain time but will not know the new you and they will refuse to learn about the new you and sometimes they have every right and sometimes they’re just a pain. 

When I heard that saying I didn’t really think anything of it until I got further away from high school and that group and I found myself a new group and my best friends and they were still friends with that old group and other people we were friends with. My new group of friends knew the old me essentially and well the new me. 

When they talked to the other friends they hated me and thought I am a horrible person which again they have every right since they were around that said group. 

In the present time well sorta present time I happened to see people from high school and talk to them and sometimes they are really nice to me or sometimes it’s the very opposite. I can try my best to show people how much I’ve changed and how much of a bitch I am no longer it won’t take away from the fact of the past and what group I was a part of it. 

My new group of friends will see me as the nice one the one who is a therapist for the whole group and is there when they need someone and the old group or the people who knew the old group will know me as the person who was always in the drama and was a buttface. As much as it sucks and me wanting to slap my past self so very hard in the face I can’t do anything about it. 

And that’s ok. 

Sometimes you just have to be ok with the things that bother you the most.