When I first saw or even heard the word ambivert I had to google it. It’s one of those words that you literally have no idea what it means. A word that you possibly think is some dinosaur or just a word to describe something. You are probably reading this like no I don’t do that. Yeah, I just have a weird brain.
But seriously I never knew what it meant. So this past year I started watching more Tik Toks and for some reason, my for you page become very relatable and most of the time I would say “YEAH THAT’S 100% ME. So a couple of weeks back I started following this guy and he would make this small 60-second script about being an introvert and he would play out different scenarios of what introverts do and how they react to things like going to a party at the last minute or people inviting them to a huge friend thing and each time I would relate but at the same time I was like wait but I am also the complete opposite.
I love talking to people. I love talking and having a good time and honestly, I absolutely love parties. Just something about all that is like “Yes I’ll go to it or yeah I’ll do it”. I am a very outgoing person that way. I think sometimes I get that from my mom she is an outgoing everyone loves kinda person so it would make sense that I’m the same. When it comes to me and her it’s scary how much we are alike. Some people when they call the house get us mixed up but that’s a story for a different day. So when you read this you’re probably thinking Oh she’s an extrovert.
But then I’m the I hate talking to people. No, I do not want to go to your party. No, I do not want to hang out with your friends I never met and Yes I rather sit in a corner and be by myself. If I do have a conversion when I get home or away from there I have to wait till my social bar goes up in order to talk to people. Like once I got on the bus to go home I would turn into this silent person who just wanted to listen to music. So you’re probably reading this and is like alright your an introvert.
That’s what I thought for the longest time like most of my life well only when I started hearing the word and what it meant. So it doesn’t make sense that I am an extrovert and an introvert. I have to be one right? Well as I watched the guy’s Tik Tok I commented on one of them and I was like I do all this but I also am the complete opposite and someone replied with the word Ambivert. So I googled it and that’s when I realized that’s what I am. I’m literally both an introvert and an extrovert.
In some way, it’s really good because I can meet new people and just be a weird person to scare other people off. However by the end of whatever happened whether like I said after school or a big gathering my social bar is drained and I just want to be alone and not talk to anyone for the next 5 business days.
Being an Ambivert has its pros and cons and it depends on the day on how I feel and if I like people. Now that I know this I will most likely still call myself an introvert because I have a bad memory and knowing my dumb self I’ll forget about this word and meaning in a couple of days. It seems that 50% of my blog posts are me learning something new about my mind and how it works and for some reason, I’m sharing it with the whole internet.