Depression day is something I came up with a while back. Well probably other people also came up with depression day but I just started doing it a couple of months back.
I am 19 years old and I suffer from depression. Now I will not say that my depression is bad as others because that’s not true. My depression is better than others or worse than others everyone who deals with depression handles and has it differently.
Depression in my life is where I stayed home from school. Hated talking about being sad and needing help and just struggling with my own brain turning against itself.
My depression started back in middle school. Got left out of a lot of things and well didn’t really have friends. From then the depression got really bad and then calmed down and the cycle went on and on.
In High School, I ended up having two ways with my depression either depression took full control of me or I took total control of it which meant I pushed it back and never dealt with it and kept it to myself. Both ways I got tired hurt and frustrated. I always say this about depression in blog posts but depression…. SUCKS.
As quarantine came around and I lost people including someone very toxic in my life. I realized I had to figure something out and also like I said toxic people finally got out of my life so I knew that I needed to start healing.
I learned that there were days where I just needed a day to myself. Just a day to not stress about work and have to rely on the fact that I need to get stuff because I will be mad at myself if I didn’t. So I started doing the depression day. I usually tend to do this before my period or when something goes wrong in my life. I usually write everything I need to do in my planner the night before because I am not a morning person but when I say an episode might kick in instead of giving myself a very long list of things that I can easily do when I am not depressed the only thing I write is movie day.
When these days happen I don’t rely on myself to get stuff done because no matter what I know I will not do it. I learned that although depression can last days even weeks even giving myself a day to understand it and just let it be for a day has helped me a lot.
Again I’m not gonna lie and say that this helps everyone because that’s not true depression days actually might make someone’s depression way worse than it already is.
Depression is kinda like handling a toddler. You do something wrong and it’s a whole tantrum being made. Trying to ignore depression just get worse it’s a literal toddler.
When you get into a depression episode treat yourself be kind and love yourself in a non-cheesy manner. Your brain will try its best to destroy you. Plan a movie day. Plan a self-care day. Plan a day where you have nothing to do at all.
That’s a depression day. That just might quiet the demons.
